my lips are dry and shriveled from giving no kisses
my arms are long awkward from giving no hugs
i'm a 21st century travesty of a person
a woman who is barren
Clueless, addicted to emotion
attached to pride ... attached to feeling the need to be tough
she doesn't remember what being feminine is like
feeling too insecure to be happy
addicted to social media, to hundreds of images a day
addicted to trying to appear smart
addicted to validation from the likes and comments and "love"
In a way ... addicted to emptiness
A narcissist who thinks her whole world will crumble down
with one wrong move
Lol
It's funny
But tragic.
Wishing someone would swoop into the role of mom and dad
and make her a woman
when biologically she is a woman now
numbed without the desire to really become one
Looking for answers
What is she? A feminist?
A psycho? A child? A mortal sinner? Sociopath?
Over-dramatic? Proud?
Second guessing everything...that nothing goes deep.
Being smart isn't an asset. Right now she needs freedom and truth
Simplicity and grace
Love and acceptance of imperfection
While she seeks perfection
Needing community
Brother, Sister, where art thou?
And where am I?
Tainting the name of Christ
To be a feminist intellectual giant
So empty